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I'm already floating in the boat with her, this wasn't my plan, this wasn't my reality. I stared the snake behind the veil in the eyes, standing tall on her pedastool made of spackle it breaks, I fall onto piercing confusion, I pull out shrapnel's of dissolution, I'm covered in her blood of invalidation. I couldn't remember from the amnesia, the dark night blinded my sight of the mountain, the drug in me was you and it consumed, i fell in love with misery and misery loves it's companies. I throw her over my shoulder to carry all her weight, it's hard to move, hard to breathe, building a new boat was extremely hard, carrying her pain was extremely hard.Įveryone thought it was impossible to do it, my shear will power to commit ****** one foot in front of the other, I just didn't know that going downstream was impossible. I can clean this insidious gem because she makes me believe, but through the veil I cannot see. I pick this gem up because of her idealization of me. My buffering and nurturing sympathy pick this beautiful woman up I forget about the mountain with the tree even being there. Since she had nothing and that's what she craves, I had everything so she wanted to enslave. I didn't know any better so I accepted this ambient abused heart, this unfelt abuse gave me amnesia, this hidden poison of my cognitive dissonance gave her all of me. She used toxic gas and light to create a projection that this heart was hers to give back to me. She wanted my wholesome heart, so she used her falsehood love bombing to create one, dreamingly admiring the mountain, we were planning different paths right then.Īs I stared at the golden Tree of Faith glowing upon Hope mountain, I didn't notice the river was rising, as the numbing waters were rising it covered my feet, I didn't notice she also took a piece of my heart to claim as her own. She came close enough for my heart to be heard, since she had no heart she was envious, she hated what others admired. What I saw wasn't real all the sudden, what I believed was now real. This beauty made me forget of the supply to the river. The river of Shame was being fed by this woman, this filth in front of me was coming from her, but the beauty was something I've never seen, this beauty had me curious. Two days later the light took shape, as it came closer I could finally see, I could see a lifeboat with a caring nurturing beautiful woman.Īs this beautiful woman came closer, I could see the river was being supplied by this woman, I could see she was the source. I looked upstream and saw a blinding light, what could this be? I was so curious, so I waited, a true gentleman always waits. The dreary stonewalling fortification on the banks allowed no light through, downstream was scary and looked impossible, why would I go that way? why even look? This river was filthy, the water was calm where I was, but looking downstream I could see the rapids of rage, the ripples of conditioning before the raging rapids were inviting. This sight to behold was everything I wanted, everything before me was so clear, but at the bottom where I was, there was a River. Hope mountain held a perfect prize awaiting me, a Tree called Faith.
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As I stand before the mountain of confidence called hope, I see a clear path up, not too steep, not too straight, but this path is embodied with rewards to the top.Īt the top, there is a magnificent tree made of gold, silver leaves and Copper roots.